Suicide and Depression with Addicts

“Like I was saying before, the suicide and stuff was just a constant thing for me. It was depression and suicide and just nothing around me. No amount of success. The seven-figure business I had built in 2019 with all the employees and everything was not enough for me, the new place, the new car, all that stuff was not doing it. And what I’ve found is that having a connection to and a purpose, an incredible purpose that you know that your life is no longer about yourself. 

What has done for me to be chasing after something that is so far beyond anything that is for me. The whole point of this is to make it so that other people don’t have to go through the pain that I went through. And in the process of constantly thinking about more and more ideas and more things and more ways to serve people, I never get the chance or the opportunity to think about depression or misery or any of the things that I’ve been so used to thinking about since I was such a young addict. 

Since I was 12-years-old, I was constantly using drugs or alcohol or substances trying to mask my feelings. And now since I stopped using drugs and alcohol, those feelings started coming up without something to mask them. And what I found is the best mask of these feelings is a purpose-driven, God-driven life, something that I get up in the morning excited to do. It’s caused me to no longer think about a meaningless life and think about why am I here? That question is answered. My pain has a purpose. The reason why I went through all the things I went through was to make it so that others will never have to go through that.”

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